Its 9am and your already on my mind

Ive got this awesome friend.
Shes awesomely awesome.
We were once very close but I ruined it.
I admit I was stupid.
We both went through so much pain.
Tears were shed.
Minds were shattered.
Remotes were thrown at nuts.
Drinking to much became a habit of mine.
It was all torture.
I deserved it all though.
We're friends again.
Ive got my happiness back.
Im not drinking as much now.
No more random drunk moments.
Once again your back on my mind.
I know you don't want me to want more than friends.
Part of me is trying.
Part of me still likes you to much though.

Don't you just hate having so much rumors about you.
Right now me and my friend from above have plenty about us.
Nothings happening.
Sure I like her but nothings happening there.
Apparently we're going out.
Apparently I dumped my last girlfriend just to hook up with her.
We're not going out.
I didn't dump my last girlfriend.

I should probably be getting ready for work.
Another day in the cold chiller.
Or maybe it will be the freezer which funny enough is much colder.
Some people aren't working.
Some people are spending time in the sun.
I wish I was